Monday, January 31, 2011

Can't SLEEP!

Sometimes I lay here and think about what it would be like to be married to a civilian. I can't see it. I can't see our life outside of the military. It's all I've known since the day I became an adult. I joined the army even before I graduated from high school. Then married him two years later. I gave my life to them 14 years ago. And when I married him, I gave it even more. Even though I am a veteran now, I still have to abide by their rules. I think I have a tiny advantage over some military wives because I did experience soldier life for 5 years. I never deployed, but I do understand that when the Army says pack... there are nooo exceptions. And all I can do is accept it, not ask questions, and wait. No matter how much he loves me, the army will always be his mistress. She will always come first. But I have to believe that what he's doing, he does for us. Because he wants us to have a great life together. He is proud to serve our country and he loves what he does. I love what he does. I may not agree or like everything, but this is what military life is. So forgive me when I roll my eyes because you are upset that your spouse is leaving for 2 days or a month even. Be happy that he is home safe. Because your neighbor is lying in bed at 3am worrying about her husband flying over enemies. Waiting for a phone call that she gets only once every couple of weeks. Hoping for a quick email telling her how much he misses her. And in the ultimate case, actually lost him. This may sound dorky... but Thank a military wife today. They aren't appreciated enough for as much as they give.

3 comments:

  1. Army life is all I've ever known, too,...from birth at Ft. Leavenworth! After almost 30 years as an Army wife, I can't think of a harder life or a more satisfying one. When we see our soldiers leaving for an assignment or coming home from one....our hearts swell up with pride. I pray for your family everyday and for John's safe return. You and John are a strong couple and you both ooze love and devotion to each other, and to Aidan.
    That is what makes a strong Army family. Love you all...xoxox
    And, Paige, "Thank you"!!

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  2. I totally get you, Paige. There are several nights that I think the same things...but I have yet to understand some of them because we've not yet been in as long as you both have. It is such a journey, one that many will never understand. Thanks for being such a great role model in my life, it has been fun to know you. Keep on keepin' on, he'll be home soon. I know that sounds lame, but it's true. Thank you.

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  3. Kimberly... you are soo cute! I "loved" being with you at your homecoming! You and Jim have always been some of my favorite clients! I am happy to see you two reunited finally!!!!

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