Friday, May 28, 2010

Business and Feelings...

Sometimes I wonder if people understand that I AM a person...with problems much like their own. Yes...I am a business owner, but at the same is a very personal business. And I do have bad days. Every photo session can't go perfectly as planned. When that happens, I try my best to be accommodating and make concessions to rearrange my schedule to fit them in at a later time. We all know babies and children can be very unpredictable. If nap time didn't go well, someone is hungry, or just plain cranky... why should that be a reflection on me? I am finding it hard not to let these things get to me or to hurt my feelings when someone is upset with the way it went. But with John gone...not here by my side to comfort me when I've had a bad just seems to be so much more frustrating. It can be kind of discouraging. Don't get me wrong...I love what I do. I love babies, and I love children. But I am still learning how to handle these situations...and I may not always be as composed as I wish I could be. When you're stressed's not always easy to hide. I am a pretty laid back and easy going person though. Most of my clients tell me that I am very patient. So I "thought" I was doing well giving that's OK vibe. I have come a long way since I opened my business. And I am pleased with my progress. I just wish I could make everyone happy...and when I don't, I am sad.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Sadness today...

Today I am feeling overwhelmed with sadness. There are so many little things....and also a few bigger things. I am sad for the people of TN who were affected by the flooding yesterday and today. I can't look at the news anymore. I feel extremely lucky to be looking at dry streets outside my window. But I also feel guilty that only a few streets away...there are businesses and homes overrun with river water. I've heard rumors that the water levels were only going to get higher but I can't even begin to imagine how that will affect them. I am counting my blessings for now and praying for those in need.

On a much smaller scale, I am sad for the little old man parked in front of me at Walmart today. After unloading my groceries, I noticed the man was standing at the front of his truck with the hood up. He looked confused. I approached him and asked him if he needed a jump. He graciously accepted. After several tries we decided that it just wasn't going to happen. I asked him if he wanted to use my cell phone to call someone. He said thank you but that his brother was inside making a call. I wished that there was more I could do for him. But he told me I should go. I left the parking lot thinking about that little man and hoping that his truck would start. And it made me sad to think he would be stranded there.

And finally...I am sad that there are people that don't care about others feelings. The ones that say mean things to people without stopping to think about what really is going on in that persons life. The ones that do things to openly exclude others and then make lame excuses as to why they did it. Excuses that don't even make sense. I refuse to let myself be affected by those people. This is why I try my best to distance myself from those that care only about themselves. I will continue to live my life "happily". Because the only thing that really is important is that I have 2 wonderful boys that love me. And soon we will be taking a trip back to the happiest place on earth. I can't wait! The photo below is from our last trip to Disney world and we are excited to go again!!!