Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Ear to Ear

If you saw me driving around town today you probably laughed at the expression on my face. I smiled huge on my way home from Base this afternoon. I ran into so many awesome people while running my weekly errands. Every one of them gave me a compliment that made me beam with pride. Sometimes I feel like I'm dreaming. I remember growing up, I was very shy. I sat in the corner watching the "cool kids" interact and dreamed of being one of them. I guess you could say I was kind of nerdy. I STILL AM NERDY! But that is one of things that makes me ME. I like to have fun. I'm giggly and "think" I'm funny. Probably not... but I can laugh at myself, and I think that's a great trait to have. Sure... there are loads of things to be SAD about. We've been through a lot in the last couple of years. And I do mean a lot. But guess what... I don't want to dwell on it. Yes, my husband is gone for the fifth time. Yes... our IVF failed. Yes... yes... yes to a bunch of other worse things even. Of course there are those days I just want to sit and cry in my pillow. But guess what I HAVE AN AMAZING LIFE! Who gets these opportunities? I don't want these next 2 years to slip out from under me. So... if you see me running around with a giant smile on my face... maybe you can just smile back. I don't have time for frowny faces ok?