Why did we wait so long to do this??? Why did we just chalk it up to bad timing??? I am not really sure why I was so scared to make the step to see an infertility specialist. We knew something was wrong after the first ectopic... so why didn't we force the issue then?? 10 years ago? I am so mad at myself for not doing something about it back then. And here I am, 35... trying to get pregnant! You know the success rates decrease drastically beginning at the age of 35!!! Maybe I'm just cooped up and bored and going crazy with researching this stuff on the internet. I'm freaking out! What if it doesn't work AGAIN this time? Of course, John says we can try one more time, but I am not getting any younger, and our pocketbook is not getting any thicker! If we try again, it won't be until after summer because we've got too many things planned in between. So... there you go... I'll be 36! OMG... I need to unplug for a few days and rest this crazy brain!
On another note... I had my last no ovulate shot this morning. Tonight I am scheduled for my trigger shot (the shot that triggers the eggs to detach from the walls of the follicles so it's easier for the RE to catch them during egg retrieval). I'm patiently waiting 2 more hours to give myself this shot, but I'd really rather knock myself out for the next 38 hours! Haha! I absolutely, must find something to do tomorrow to keep myself sane and occupied. This staying at home crap and browsing the interweb is doing me no good!!!!!!
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